confessions.

i have fallen in love

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 04:17:22 GMT

i have in love with... this. this small 50ml bottle will set me back by $170 sgd before shipping. bloody hell. but the scent. it is oh sooo flowery. help.

more about the flowerbomb:

"Full-bodied and opulent, FLOWERBOMB is a floral explosion, a profusion of flowers that has the power to make everything seem more positive. Magically evocative notes will immediately awaken your deepest senses, giving you the impression of living life in your own secret garden away from reality.

Sambac Jasmine, Centifolia Rose, Cattleya Orchid and Ballerina Freesia bloom on a base of Patchouli. In a bottle cut like a multi-faceted diamond."

technlogy advances

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 19:23:27 GMT

here's comes my ultimate dream phone. the e71x. comes with everything the e71 has and in a to-die-for matte black. woots.

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 17:38:54 GMT

It was the most memorable trip of my life. Gave a beautiful ending to the entire 3 years at SP. i love yall classmates. thank u. and thanks to those 9 other great companions that made the trip unforgettable. Dominic, Mini Jo, Kavee, Kian Yong, Dee, Maxi Jo, Earl, Janice, Jess. LOVE YALL!

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 03:41:11 GMT

everyone's so angsty recently with all that shit from people who just aint us. but babies! it's four more weeks to go and we're out of here.

and on that note, I MISS YOU ALL. and yay bangkok in 5 weeks yippee.

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 08:40:22 GMT

honestly crazy shit.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cMV_gvBwL1g#

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 07:46:12 GMT

two very addictive songs stuck in my head.

I’m staring at a broken door
there’s nothin left here anymore
my room is cold
it’s makin me insane
i’ve been waitin here so long
but now the moment seems to‘ve come
i see the dark clouds comin up again

runnin through the monsoon
beyond the world
to the end of time
where the rain won’t hurt
fighting the storm
into the blue
and when i lose myself
i’ll think of you
together we’ll be running somewhere new
through the monsoon
just me and you

a half moon’s fading from my sight
i see your vision in it’s light
but now it’s gone and left me so alone
i know i have to find you now
can hear your name
i don’t know how
why can’t we make this darkness feel like home

running through the monsoon
beyond the world
to the end of time
where the rain won’t hurt
fighting the storm
into the blue
and when i lose myself
i’ll think of you
together we’ll be running somewhere new
and nothing can hold me back from you
through the monsoon

hey! - hey!
i’m fightin all it’s power
comin’ in my way
let it take me straight to you
i’ll be running night and day
i’ll be with you soon, just me and you,
we’ll be there soon, so soon…

running through the monsoon
beyond the world
to the end of time
where the rain won’t hurt
fighting the storm
into the blue
and when i lose myself
i’ll think of you
together we’ll be running somewhere new
and nothing can hold me back from you
through the monsoon
through the monsoon
just me and you
through the monsoon
just me and you.

Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable

When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable

[chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

[verse 2]
I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable

[chorus]

[bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether

[chorus] x2
... made me unbeautiful.

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 09:23:52 GMT

i was cutting some newspapers cutting for media tracking like, just. and then i flipped over i was like shit. it was the orbituary and im suppose to glue over their faces. curious. i saw these 5 young guys pictures which makes me wonder... hmmm.. so i went online typed 2 of these guys name and shucks. i realised it was the 5 dragon boat players who drowned in cambodia ( hello crisis management. =D). then i thought to myself. it's been a year already. to those who care and were friends of these people remebmber their death anniversary, but what abt the rest of SIngapore? i dunno this made me very emotional somehow. i mean, still, i knowwe are supposed to move on and such.

hais. life is so unpredictable.

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 16:57:48 GMT

mom's such a bitch really. she just got back from bangkok with my dad and now she's starting to nag already. like i wanna watch tv though i noe it's just past midnight now and she scolds me like im some secondary kid schooling and says that its a weekend. since when has it been a difference to me, seeing that im alr on my com till like 3 am at least every night. wad's the difference if i watch tv or not. im still gonna stay up till 3. oh i noe. she get to save on those bloody electricity bills. ugh i hate it when my mom treats me like a 14 year old kid.

dmanfhweugfwjvnejbhuehriebjhejbhjeb.

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 16:06:55 GMT

dedicated to that one in my life:

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

seriously in love.

Wed, 12 Mar 2008 21:50:00 GMT

absolutely devastated. he bf's going in tmr. im like so so so going to die. it's like someone on drugs going for drug rehab... i mean i see him every day now... and suddenly he just enlist and everthing. its goinna be so hard to cope without him around.

oh well. at least i hope everything goes well for him. i mean u have heard of ppl going into army and not coming back right. im just paranoid but im darn scared im gonna lose this boy i love like hell to the nation. ugh.

anyway was browsing online for some hoodies just now and i came across this.

its a reversible hoodie. and i so freaking like the design. see the geek word there. so spot on eh. and im not a toy? god i think its cool. but after shipping charges, it'll cost around $182 sing. and thats way beyond the budget. if i even have one in the first place.

ugh. i need to work and take my mind off things... as well as getting the hoodie and nintendo ds that im raving madly about. =(

note: viwawa's wahjong helps alot too. =) go play!

true love exists

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 21:28:47 GMT

i just watch finished epi 14 of bull fighting, 鬥牛。要不要. its this taiwanese drama that kinda revolves around basketball and alot alot of love... and the society classes. but it is oh so freaking nice ok. damn sad at times that makes me cry... but then there are moments where the love birds are so into each other that just makes me wanna jump around and shout and go awwwwwwwww. hahahas. yeap im that kind of person when it come to dramas.. especially chinese ones since their theme of love is always so much stronger than english one.

theres this damn hottie in the show.. mike he. never heard of him before but then again i dun watch much taiwanese drama but he is so fucking hot and cool in the show.. always in nice casual suits... i am so going gaga over him because he has beautiful eyes that speaks volume. and the theme song, sang by S.H.E is so damn fucking addictive and soooo.. i dunno.. sad? hahahs. accompanies me to slp everynight... ugh... makes me feel sad... oh well... thats what shows do to me. well would be awaiting the next epi soon!

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its 5 am!!! woohoo.. its holidays now so its ok for me... hahas. been such a drama junkie. finished gossip girls...ugly betty... and heroes. and coffee prince!! im so proud of myself. now i have to go get a job. damn.

peace out.

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 21:32:59 GMT

ok im think im getting nocturnal or smth... after 2 hrs of attemped sleep its just past 5 am now... no point slping now cos im going to head to the bf's hse.. i dunno why but its so much easier to slp there. even at night. mayb its that familiar scent that im so used to already that puts me to bed. cos he has this unique kinda scent. not those smelly kind but its just addictive. to me that is. like how the butterflies(i think or some other insect too lazy to go research now) release some scent to attract the male/female(i dunno which my science is getting poorer). LOL. dunno how im gonna live without him for the first i dunno how many months/weeks of bmt starting from march 14... following which of weekends to spend with him after that stupid bmt. yeap reality has finally set. that stupid dreaded ns time for the bf is finally here. and it is really gonna be shit. ugh.

hwhy oh hwhy must our boys go for ns. i totally understand that war shit but izzit ever gonna happen;. oh well. ns is a TOTAL boyfriend stealer. wins hands down compared to the game consoles/dota/whatever the guys play now.

ok this is like my first entry after so long and i think its like the first of the year and im blabbing abt the bf. oh well.

cloverfield rocks but please dun eat too much if u get motion sickness easily. i almost puked next to the bf. hahahs.

and prmp totally sucks. but hooray hols and cny soon. not so much on the latter. i will have to spend two full days with my parents omg.

ok i gtg prepare now. loves.

and someone please comment. LOL. (time check 5.32)

saying goodbyes.

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 11:39:33 GMT

comm 101 came and went ydae in just a short span of 3 hrs. having spent a whole semester working together with the geek squad to plan this event it seem like a part of me has ended. i'll miss those days when we sit and discuss seriously abt work and smth funny or retarded always comes up in the middle of the dicussion, ending up in a camwhoring session. i'll miss the day when we went to kavee's place and put the cloth together. i'll miss going to bugis with sue and buying junkies like an auntie with the oh-so-cheap prices. cutting the raffia string that ties the cloth to the ceiling lights gave the ending of comm 101 a grand exit, having taking an entire morning to put them up and sticking the ground sheets on the window. so many many things that are etched in my head right now, and i'll never forget them. not forgetting the 7 wonderful people on this team that make it such a perfect combination. netty, the psychotic, jo, my giraffe, eil, the phish ball, jannah, the kuku who's always sacarstic and making me laugh, sue, the bimbo auntie, kavee, the indian who sings with a constipation face, and kianyong, the cute host/salesman who is so unpredictable. every single one of them has a special laughter that i'll always remember. damn im gonna cry... ugh.

as eil said,
i love you, geek squad.

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 17:11:03 GMT

enough said.

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 11:35:16 GMT

saw this on elschmo and decided to try. pretty accurate actually. esp the philanthropist part. hahas. srsly. and u can go try it urself here too!

You entered: Tan Yu Feng (yeap my real real name)

There are 9 letters in your name.
Those 9 letters total to 41
There are 3 vowels and 6 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 5
The characteristics of #5 are: Expansiveness, visionary, adventure, the constructive use of freedom.

The expression or destiny for #5:
The number 5 Expression endows with the wonderful characteristic of multi-talents and versatility. You can do so many things well. The tone of the number 5 is constructive freedom, and in your drive to attain this freedom, you will likely be the master of adaptability and change. You are good at presenting ideas and knowing how to approach people to get what you want. Naturally, this gives you an edge in any sort of selling game and spells easy success when it comes to working with people in most jobs. Your popularity may lead you toward some form of entertainment or amusement. Whatever you do, you are clever, analytical, and a very quick thinker.

If there is too much of the 5 energy in your makeup, you may express some the negative attitudes of the number. Your restless and impatient attitude may keep you from staying with any project for too long. Sometimes you can be rather erratic and scatter yourself and your energies. You have a hard time keeping regular office hours and maintaining any sort of a routine. You tend to react strongly if you sense that your freedom of speech or action is being impaired or restricted in any way. As clever as you are, you may have a tendency to make the same mistakes over and over again because much of your response is glib reaction rather that thoughtful application. You are in a continuous state of flux brought by constantly changing interests.
Your Soul Urge number is: 9

A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.
As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.
Your Inner Dream number is: 5

An Inner Dream number of 5 means:
You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.

well many many things to do for school... dumb dumb prmp. am.. tvsm... ugh. oh well. part and parcel of school.... =)

and me and baby are totally fine. totally. like perfecto. if anyone wants to noe. oh and i apologize for the recent hiatus. laziness sets in too much in this cow. (mooooos.)

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 17:28:54 GMT

well i noe i've been mia-ing from school alot since term started. i promise i'll try to make it for all lessons. its just so hard really... slping is such a sin. mia-ing in school is not at all fun, esp when you start to feel ostracize by ur friends and they start talking amongst themselves and u noe nuts abt anything...

well on a lighter note. had real good fun with baby ydae for a long long time already. he gave me a surprise when he came to find mi during AM lecture then went off to do his stuff. den came back to pick me up, another surprise, from the bazaar. it was a great shock since i dun expect him to be so open abt our relationship once again. but im a happy girl yet again. =) then we went to town, hoping to catch a good movie, but sadly, the timings were so late... cos we wanted to have dinner at his bar so have to be there earlier. in the end we decided to go to e-max and get a dvd room to watch past movies which we never manage to catch. in the end we watch the banquet, this really good chinese movie with zhang ziyi in it. and the room was damn cosy. i could get addicted to it. the best part was that it onli cost us like 6 bucks plus, after discount, which is like a far cry from the usual 18 bucks for 2 tickets to the movies. hahas...

and the bar was such a lovely lovely place to hang out at! Boulevard, at Red Dot Traffic Museum. with such nice people there i can imagine why baby likes working there so much. they were so friendly and nice towards me. it was weird getting them to make me mocktails though. im such a alcoholic loser. hahas... tried pussy foot and it was lovely. but my all time fav is virgin pina colada. =) and malibu rum coke is nicey too, which was wad baby had. nothing was ugh. but then again, it must have heavily increased in liquor since the bartender wanted to make him drunk ever since. and food was awesome for such a bar. yummy great food. but hell expensive there. thankfully the boss got our tab, seeing him wantin to get into baby's good books as he was doing some poster stuff for him. serious cheapo lahs the boss. but he's rich. what to do. and he got cute dogs. hahas. and i love the wallpaper there. and the chandelier. damn pretty. =)

really had a lovely time ydae. thanks baby for such a wonderful day. =) i love spending time with u, and waking up in the morning with u by my side... loves!!!!

santa!

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 16:59:51 GMT

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In August I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). Last Saturday I turned stolentobacco in for tearing the tag off a mattress (3 points). In November I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). In September I pushed privatemaw in the mud (-17 points). Last week I gave dilysss a wet willie, then I took it back (-5 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-8 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
delicatediva

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 15:39:46 GMT

yays my first entry on livejournal. hahas. today was horrible. went down to mos and the queue was sca-ryyyy... all the way to crazy horse. like wth loh. hahas.